Moments in Solitude

Old picture but it shows exactly how I feel these days. Bubbly, light and content.

Old picture but it shows exactly how I feel these days. Bubbly, light and content.

in the middle of somewhere

on the edge of rejection

i took my self back

and i started accepting

that life is just moment

to moment

to moment

there’s no use in dwelling

you can not control it

or pause it

or call it

your own

there’s no destination

you’re already home
— 38Fish by Jhene Aiko

Although it has been a while since I have written up a blog post, I’ve been reflecting and working on a lot of things in my life.

 For the past month, I have kept to myself in solitude. For some, solitude may seem like a scary thing. But being alone does not mean that you are lonely. And in solitude I have learnt to be more whole.

 I would find myself going on long drives or taking long walks or even sitting still in meditation. I would ask myself questions.

‘What do you want?’

‘What would you like to achieve?

‘Who do you want to be?’

& ‘Are you ready for what is ahead?

I would also make silent prayers. I would breathe and take in all the beauty surrounding me. And I would be grateful to be living in that moment.

 More and more, I try to be present in everything that I do and with the people that I am with. I cherish being surrounded with the people that I love. And I also cherish being able to feel more like myself. I felt more focused and I felt more aligned and in tune to who I wanted to become.

 I’ve started new habits such as going on social media less and instead reading more. I don’t use my phone an hour before or after sleeping. I exercise daily and after years of wanting to, I have finally started doing yoga. I re-started writing in my affirmation and gratitude journal and I’ve learnt to love myself again. Even more so this time. And it feels wonderful.

 I’ve said this time and time again but I am always amazed to see how far I have come and how much I have grown. But again, everything will happen in Divine timing.  Living intentionally with purpose has made me live authentically. And I pray that for the years and journey to come, I continue to live my most authentic life.

 Each day goes by and I’ve been living moment to moment. I listen more to nature, to what my body needs, to the advice I am given and to the signs that God shows me. I listen to my heart and to my intuition. I listen attentively and lovingly.

 I’m also more awake. I am also more aware. I look up. I look around. And I look within.

Because everything I ever need, everything that I have ever prayed for will always come my way. Be it in this life, in the next or in a better form. InsyaAllah.

 It is and it will always happen all so beautifully. I just need to have trust with Allah and with myself. And all I have to do is be ready.

 So in my moments of solitude I have been preparing myself to receive anything and everything which God knows is best for me.




Nurul Shamsul